As the columns come crashing down.
I am glad you graced me with your presence.
I moved to:
Here
You're in time to see me wrestle with my conscence.
Paint me something pretty.
Take it in, it's not too much to see.
We knew this moment was ours, don't give it up or chase it away.
The seams on our tale start to fray.
Draw the blinds and lock the door. I'm treading water, far from shore.
The water serves to break my fall. Open up my lungs and hear my call.
This could be so much more than anything ever before.
If you put your faith in me I promise one thing, I'll never let go, never let you go.
Put your faith in me and step off the edge, I promise I'll break your fall.
You will fly if you take the plunge.
You said it couldn't be done, I said it's never been done.
This could be so much more than anything ever before.
If you put your faith in me I promise one thing, I'll never let go, never let you go.
I'm calling out to you, can you hear me?
Just believe in me. Just believe in us.
Happy thoughts like Peter Pan. The imagination of a boy that shows we all can fly.
Fly away with me.
You said it can't be done, I said it's never been done.
Just close your eyes and take my hand.
Follow me to Neverland.
This is our happy ending.
This is our answered prayer.
Veek-Tor-Re-Yer.
I will eat your lies and love its poison.
I've the superpowers to get distracted easily.
Sometimes, just because I'm listening and talkng to you, it doesn't mean we are friends.
Music circulates my blood, its rhythm runs in my veins.
I don't believe in second chances. There is a reason why it didn't work at the first time.
I swear. I have a high tendency to irritate and get irritated.
I am easily knocked over. I talk without much thinking. I do things without a particular reason. I take notice of things too much sometimes.
I don't give you the truth all the time. I dont't tell you the facts right in your face. I'll feed you lies sometimes.
And I don't deal with things the perfect way.
Most of the times, I'll argue with you for no reason whatsoever. But I usually have a pretty damn good excuse.
By the end of the day, some will love me, some will hate me. I don't mind which.
As long as you're not in that mid-ground where you love me one minute and want to rip my head off the next.
Because if things are that way, I'll make you hate me through and through.
I would like to meet people who can entertain me without having to try. Because I get bored easily.
I would love to have lots of money. I don't mind if I drown in it.
Saturday, September 09, 2006
im sorries
sianz
tml cannot go lo
i mean i can go if i lie and cheat to my 'rents
and i cant bear to do it animore :(
well
they had owaes wanted the best for me
and wanted me to do well
and yet i had to go defy them and disappoint them
they cared alot abt me
yet i was not satisfied and complain continuously
fuck myself la
i had owaes blamed my 'rents for evrything
i sae they din tink abt my feeling n thots
yet i was e one hu din tink abt theirs
i thot they were owaes in e rong
but i nv thot tht i was partly to be blame
i cant bear tis mixed feeling
guilt-confused-sad-longingness-anger-fear
thts wad i am feeling now
or maybe more
yet they dunno and they mite nv noe
i dun wan to gif up
nor lose faith or lose patience
but smtimes i juz feel lyk goin bck to sq1
probably if things had stay tht wae
i wont b lying or cheating my 'rents
nor disappointing them
nor feeling tht mixed-up feelings
i hate tht i-am-so-disappointed-by-u-look
i noe tht i cant forgive myself for wad i did
i dun wan to turn back
and i dun plan to :(
smtimes
i juz tink tht im a ungrateful bitch
my 'rents try to gif the bez for me
and here i am
lying and cheating and disappointin them
behind their backs
and yet they dun even noe
tht their own daughter is lying to them
i mean face the facts
i hadnt bin a gd daughter
i seriously suck lyk shit lo
i am such a fucking shibai zhe
i shldnt be in tis world
mayb i shld juz disappear frm tis damned world
n probably my 'rents and my sis
would remain as a happy family w/o me
and it would probably b happy ever after
ya mayb tht's the wae things mite turn out
hu noes for sure?
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