As the columns come crashing down.
I am glad you graced me with your presence.
I moved to:
Here
You're in time to see me wrestle with my conscence.
Paint me something pretty.
Take it in, it's not too much to see.
We knew this moment was ours, don't give it up or chase it away.
The seams on our tale start to fray.
Draw the blinds and lock the door. I'm treading water, far from shore.
The water serves to break my fall. Open up my lungs and hear my call.
This could be so much more than anything ever before.
If you put your faith in me I promise one thing, I'll never let go, never let you go.
Put your faith in me and step off the edge, I promise I'll break your fall.
You will fly if you take the plunge.
You said it couldn't be done, I said it's never been done.
This could be so much more than anything ever before.
If you put your faith in me I promise one thing, I'll never let go, never let you go.
I'm calling out to you, can you hear me?
Just believe in me. Just believe in us.
Happy thoughts like Peter Pan. The imagination of a boy that shows we all can fly.
Fly away with me.
You said it can't be done, I said it's never been done.
Just close your eyes and take my hand.
Follow me to Neverland.
This is our happy ending.
This is our answered prayer.
Veek-Tor-Re-Yer.
I will eat your lies and love its poison.
I've the superpowers to get distracted easily.
Sometimes, just because I'm listening and talkng to you, it doesn't mean we are friends.
Music circulates my blood, its rhythm runs in my veins.
I don't believe in second chances. There is a reason why it didn't work at the first time.
I swear. I have a high tendency to irritate and get irritated.
I am easily knocked over. I talk without much thinking. I do things without a particular reason. I take notice of things too much sometimes.
I don't give you the truth all the time. I dont't tell you the facts right in your face. I'll feed you lies sometimes.
And I don't deal with things the perfect way.
Most of the times, I'll argue with you for no reason whatsoever. But I usually have a pretty damn good excuse.
By the end of the day, some will love me, some will hate me. I don't mind which.
As long as you're not in that mid-ground where you love me one minute and want to rip my head off the next.
Because if things are that way, I'll make you hate me through and through.
I would like to meet people who can entertain me without having to try. Because I get bored easily.
I would love to have lots of money. I don't mind if I drown in it.
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
sat at crematarium.
why am i not laying there? was death another thing i wasn't good enough for?
only negative things stay wth me, i guess.
im a hypocrite, with things like this. to everyone, it's like i don't care, i live life to it's fullest, which is sort of true but in the back of my mind i question if i even want it.
why was i given a second chance? or even a third? do i deserve it?
why was i denied death twice? does a cut not bleed? does a rose not die?
every breath, every heartache.
i am only human, but at least the pain lets me know that im still alive.
i can feel my chest caving in, it gets harder and harder to breath. & even harder to think sometimes.
but i can still feel my heart beating softly. i am still here, i am still breathing. i can still register my presence here, even if it seems to be barely there.
look at me, look at me, in this place of ethereal beauty.
it doesnt seems right. it all seems a sham, a scene.
i feel like a brain steering around this big, clumsy body like a mechanical warrior suit or something.
i wanna leave the suit & be just me, 'cause that's all i am. i wanna go fly around in space.
i feel terribly void & empty. nothing seemed to be accomplished. what i did in these fourteen years of my shitass life?
i knew in the bottom of my heart, the answer amount to nothing. this voice stuck in my head reminding me every second.
you used to be angel, but now, no, you're more like the shitting devil.
why not cut my wrists & blind my eys. so i can fall asleep tonight. or die.
for you're bound to choke yourself with another thousand words.
take me away. i dont know you anymore. dig my eyes out. i rather see them without you.
because when flying feels like falling, nothing is rational anymore.
i want to stop breathing & thinking altogether & blend silently into the night without a trace or sound, leaving everything single fucking thing behind.
for death is a more beautiful thing than life.
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