As the columns come crashing down.
I am glad you graced me with your presence.
I moved to:
Here
You're in time to see me wrestle with my conscence.
Paint me something pretty.
Take it in, it's not too much to see.
We knew this moment was ours, don't give it up or chase it away.
The seams on our tale start to fray.
Draw the blinds and lock the door. I'm treading water, far from shore.
The water serves to break my fall. Open up my lungs and hear my call.
This could be so much more than anything ever before.
If you put your faith in me I promise one thing, I'll never let go, never let you go.
Put your faith in me and step off the edge, I promise I'll break your fall.
You will fly if you take the plunge.
You said it couldn't be done, I said it's never been done.
This could be so much more than anything ever before.
If you put your faith in me I promise one thing, I'll never let go, never let you go.
I'm calling out to you, can you hear me?
Just believe in me. Just believe in us.
Happy thoughts like Peter Pan. The imagination of a boy that shows we all can fly.
Fly away with me.
You said it can't be done, I said it's never been done.
Just close your eyes and take my hand.
Follow me to Neverland.
This is our happy ending.
This is our answered prayer.
Veek-Tor-Re-Yer.
I will eat your lies and love its poison.
I've the superpowers to get distracted easily.
Sometimes, just because I'm listening and talkng to you, it doesn't mean we are friends.
Music circulates my blood, its rhythm runs in my veins.
I don't believe in second chances. There is a reason why it didn't work at the first time.
I swear. I have a high tendency to irritate and get irritated.
I am easily knocked over. I talk without much thinking. I do things without a particular reason. I take notice of things too much sometimes.
I don't give you the truth all the time. I dont't tell you the facts right in your face. I'll feed you lies sometimes.
And I don't deal with things the perfect way.
Most of the times, I'll argue with you for no reason whatsoever. But I usually have a pretty damn good excuse.
By the end of the day, some will love me, some will hate me. I don't mind which.
As long as you're not in that mid-ground where you love me one minute and want to rip my head off the next.
Because if things are that way, I'll make you hate me through and through.
I would like to meet people who can entertain me without having to try. Because I get bored easily.
I would love to have lots of money. I don't mind if I drown in it.
Sunday, October 28, 2007
i think life is unfair. i seriously think that life is very unfair.
and i really have no objections to ending it.
now i can understand, it's sorrow that feeds me lies. and actually makes me go on.
i have always live for the wrong things. and always live to prove the world wrong.
my life had been contradicting from the day i was born.
yes, im being a self-centred bitch, thinking that i should be the one having a good life. but who doesnt?
im just so sick and tired of this bloody life im leading. i wana taste freedom so badly that it feels like i had just ripped out my heartstrings.
church was the pits yesterday.
i really have no mood to talk about it anymore. and church only made me worse.
well, at least, i saw my cousin. i guess i should be a little happy.
i guess i should be saying, "i have God, but she doesnt. my life might not be perfect, but i still have God on my side. her life might be perfect, but she lacks God's love."
but why does it sounds so wrong when i tell myself that?
jealousy's a ugly word. and it's eating me inside out.
but i know it's okay, because im already spilling with imperfection.
and im still drooling over my model ryan:D haha.
my myspace eyecandy Y
i really wanna buy bsc's hoodie + tshirt. i think it's reallyreallyreally amazingly sweet.
sheesh. bsc is the most amazing merchandise i ever seen. serious.
i thought i could just give it all up. i thought i could put my arms in the air and feel like i dont care.
i thought i could feel the burden off my shoulders.
but why do i feel like my heartstrings had just been severed?
this sounds so contradicting. and i hate the way you cloud my mind everytime.
i miss my cds. but i dont need anyone's sympathy or empathy. because you can never understand how i feel. you dont treat the cds the way i treat them.
i hate it when you give me that sympathetic eyes. save it for others.
i dont give a damn, you're disappointed/angry/sad/whatever, because i had enough.
you know, i really hope you read this.
because i know you wouldnt say it facetoface with me, so i can only get my message across in this way.
do not expect me to initiate any serious conversation with you. because you're not worth my time.
i'll treat you the way im supposed to do it. because im just one of the manipulated puppets caught in the cycle.
i can't trust anyone, witness and see it in my eyes.
and you're just one of the people who mould me into who i am. let me tell you a secret, you used to be one of the person i trusted. but now, no.
"really will feel good." = rialy will feel good.
im gonna feel good tmr. i think i'll try emosleeping tonight, maybe i'll forget everything tmr.oh great, now im resorting to self-deceiving.
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