As the columns come crashing down.
I am glad you graced me with your presence.
I moved to:
Here
You're in time to see me wrestle with my conscence.
Paint me something pretty.
Take it in, it's not too much to see.
We knew this moment was ours, don't give it up or chase it away.
The seams on our tale start to fray.
Draw the blinds and lock the door. I'm treading water, far from shore.
The water serves to break my fall. Open up my lungs and hear my call.
This could be so much more than anything ever before.
If you put your faith in me I promise one thing, I'll never let go, never let you go.
Put your faith in me and step off the edge, I promise I'll break your fall.
You will fly if you take the plunge.
You said it couldn't be done, I said it's never been done.
This could be so much more than anything ever before.
If you put your faith in me I promise one thing, I'll never let go, never let you go.
I'm calling out to you, can you hear me?
Just believe in me. Just believe in us.
Happy thoughts like Peter Pan. The imagination of a boy that shows we all can fly.
Fly away with me.
You said it can't be done, I said it's never been done.
Just close your eyes and take my hand.
Follow me to Neverland.
This is our happy ending.
This is our answered prayer.
Veek-Tor-Re-Yer.
I will eat your lies and love its poison.
I've the superpowers to get distracted easily.
Sometimes, just because I'm listening and talkng to you, it doesn't mean we are friends.
Music circulates my blood, its rhythm runs in my veins.
I don't believe in second chances. There is a reason why it didn't work at the first time.
I swear. I have a high tendency to irritate and get irritated.
I am easily knocked over. I talk without much thinking. I do things without a particular reason. I take notice of things too much sometimes.
I don't give you the truth all the time. I dont't tell you the facts right in your face. I'll feed you lies sometimes.
And I don't deal with things the perfect way.
Most of the times, I'll argue with you for no reason whatsoever. But I usually have a pretty damn good excuse.
By the end of the day, some will love me, some will hate me. I don't mind which.
As long as you're not in that mid-ground where you love me one minute and want to rip my head off the next.
Because if things are that way, I'll make you hate me through and through.
I would like to meet people who can entertain me without having to try. Because I get bored easily.
I would love to have lots of money. I don't mind if I drown in it.
Thursday, December 27, 2007
a wonderful caricature of feelings.
me, i thought i just wanted to be normal. but for a moment or two, i thought normal was boring. then again i thought i was tired of being me. but i hate the thought of losing myself. why is thinking making things confusing? why does talking makes me feel emptier than before?
give me release. im tired of this world of appearances. pigs are only pigs if they look fat. families are only counted families when they look happy and together. why is everything set on so precariously on appearances? why does things seems so clear that it might fall through?
give me motivation and drive. so my life seems to be changing faster than i care to keep up with it. i've slowly fallen into an easy life. i hate it a little bit, but how often do we really fall into something comfortable and hate it but do it just cause its easy?
a life without satisfaction and accomplishments. sucks.
give me pain. maybe we should be more thankful for our hardships & maybe its good to make things harder on yourself sometimes. because it makes things matter more & it feels better once you're finally over whatever obstacle it is that you're facing. pain is a weird thing. everyone hates it & complains about it, but could you imagine life without it? wouldn't it take the meaning out of everything that matters?
maybe, i just wanna make the biggest mistake in my life and screw up my whole life so much that i cant save myself. i just wanna know that i can love someone unconditionally. completely and totally, permanently and without hope of reward, just as an act of will, i will love someone. i wanna know that i can trust.
because maybe then i can feel complete.
[edited at 11:19pm]
oh dammit, my backbone is hurting like shit and im starting to feel that sleep is never coming.
i've no idea why im posting. but im hoping that posting might make my backbone go away.
oh i must be talking nonsense right now.
please, backbone, stop hurting like shit.
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