As the columns come crashing down.
I am glad you graced me with your presence.
I moved to:
Here
You're in time to see me wrestle with my conscence.
Paint me something pretty.
Take it in, it's not too much to see.
We knew this moment was ours, don't give it up or chase it away.
The seams on our tale start to fray.
Draw the blinds and lock the door. I'm treading water, far from shore.
The water serves to break my fall. Open up my lungs and hear my call.
This could be so much more than anything ever before.
If you put your faith in me I promise one thing, I'll never let go, never let you go.
Put your faith in me and step off the edge, I promise I'll break your fall.
You will fly if you take the plunge.
You said it couldn't be done, I said it's never been done.
This could be so much more than anything ever before.
If you put your faith in me I promise one thing, I'll never let go, never let you go.
I'm calling out to you, can you hear me?
Just believe in me. Just believe in us.
Happy thoughts like Peter Pan. The imagination of a boy that shows we all can fly.
Fly away with me.
You said it can't be done, I said it's never been done.
Just close your eyes and take my hand.
Follow me to Neverland.
This is our happy ending.
This is our answered prayer.
Veek-Tor-Re-Yer.
I will eat your lies and love its poison.
I've the superpowers to get distracted easily.
Sometimes, just because I'm listening and talkng to you, it doesn't mean we are friends.
Music circulates my blood, its rhythm runs in my veins.
I don't believe in second chances. There is a reason why it didn't work at the first time.
I swear. I have a high tendency to irritate and get irritated.
I am easily knocked over. I talk without much thinking. I do things without a particular reason. I take notice of things too much sometimes.
I don't give you the truth all the time. I dont't tell you the facts right in your face. I'll feed you lies sometimes.
And I don't deal with things the perfect way.
Most of the times, I'll argue with you for no reason whatsoever. But I usually have a pretty damn good excuse.
By the end of the day, some will love me, some will hate me. I don't mind which.
As long as you're not in that mid-ground where you love me one minute and want to rip my head off the next.
Because if things are that way, I'll make you hate me through and through.
I would like to meet people who can entertain me without having to try. Because I get bored easily.
I would love to have lots of money. I don't mind if I drown in it.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Seems to me that even love can die.
Blow the last candle out. Let the wax harden
I wish I could stop crying. I wish someone still loved me
Just breathe and focus.
How can I when the air is so cold and empty that my lungs froze right in my chest?
I'll be honest the silver linings are getting harder and harder to manufacture.
And the smiles are so difficult to fake.What do I have to do, or who do I have to kill, to get what I want. What I need.
Happiness is an emotion I was born to this world without. Nothing pleases me. I cannot be satiated. Through this toil I will breed my own distress and destroy my best hopes.
Fuck up the only things I love. I watched my dreams die.I watched my aspirations crash to the ground on the backs of the angels that I've slain.
But I meant so well, I tried too hard, gave every ounce of my soul, to what end?
Desolation, desire, exhale, pass away.
-Atreyu, A Song For The Optimists.There are memories stacking up, and they pull at my guts.
What do I have to do to end it?
The better days hacked away, leaving me only pain.
This regret is never ending but in the blink of an eye, this life passes you by.
I wish that I could give you my time.
But time has changed nothing at all.Oh so
now, you want the truth? You want the fucking truth and nothing less?
The truth?
I tried as hard as I could. I took as much as I could take. I put up with all I could.
And it
still wasn't enough.
Sometimes it makes me want to laugh. Sometimes it makes me want to take my toaster in the bath.
It's rock paper scissors. It’s hand against hand and both hands are mine.
We lost. You lost.
I lost.
I wanted to ask her, "Do you think I'm strange?" But I'm afraid of what she'll say.She told me I didnt have a heart.
And I said,
"I have a heart. A heart that beats no more."You once talked to me about love, and sang lullabies of those far away stars.
You told me stories of that Paradise and painted pretty pictures with your words.
And I could have gone to that place, but I didn't understand.
You thought I would. But I didnt. I ran away. From your pretty pictures and words.
I told you that fantasy was overrated.
But I guess reality was overrated too.I know we’d both like to forget everything that has happened.
We’ve become strangers. Strangers with a past.
Lately, I am realizing that I don’t really miss you, I miss the way you made me feel.
Even if it was a lie.I would be lying if I said I didn't care.
I wouldnt be crying if it didn't hurt.
The worst part?
Watching everything happen again. And again. Without having any power to stop it.And silence is the best remedy.
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